Being Busy

Dear Me,

Ang awkward lang ng mga bagay na nangyayari sa buhay ko ngayon. Hindi ko alam kung dapat ba akong maging masaya o malungkot. Every days that just passed by seems to be so long, so tough. It is so hard to pretend that you are strong. It is so hard to stop the tears from flowing. "I must be happy! I should be happy!", those are the things that's been echoing in my head; but it'd so difficult to smile, to laugh, to show care and to give love, if you know that you are hurting inside. It's been a long time since that day, I thought I'm already fine, I'm good! But just like what my friend said to me, "Hindi ka okay, walang okay sa'yo...ang meron lang ngayon eh nagiging matapang ka ng harapin ang bawat araw!" She's right :D I still haven't overcome the pain. Kaya ito ako ngayon nagiging busy, nagpapakabusy! Baka sakali kasing mawala, unti-unting maglaho...lahat ng lungkot, lahat ng sakit...Baka sakaling makatulong ang pagiging busy ko para makalimot. At baka mas mabilis na dumating ung araw na wala na.....wala na lahat! wala na lahat ng tungkol sa'yo......


pangalawang beses ko ng sasabihin to......"GOODBYE"

~Menggay (S_M_I_L_E)